Coming back home for the summer has done me more good than I could have ever imagined

Since coming back home I have been able to dedicate a lot of time to getting to just know myself again. I know that may sound weird, but over the past few years especially with university, I haven’t really had time for anything. I work, go to school, do homework, and that’s basically it. Over the summers I would work and sometimes volunteer and hang out with friends/Jay and although it was a lot of fun and I had a great time, I never really got to focus on just myself. I am taking a lot of time to do that this summer. 

Since coming home I have been dedicating a lot of time to bettering myself both inside and out. I had (and still have) a lot of anxiety and I had bouts of depressed moods especially while away at school, and I felt very disconnected from people and just overall life. Lately I have been working on my mental and physical health and I am just so happy and feeling great again, it’s awesome. I’ve noticed that Jay has asked me “why are you so happy? why are you so bubbly? you’re being so hyper and weird” etc. so much lately. I haven’t noticed how out of the ordinary it seems for me to just act like my old self. It feels good. 

I’ve been taking the time to make healthy food choices, I’ve been exercising, I’ve been doing the things I enjoy and it’s nice. I have a lot of time in the days that I am not working to just focus on myself and I am taking this time to be selfish. I’m not going to work my summer away like I had planned, I am thoroughly enjoying spending time getting to an amazing place emotionally, physically, and mentally, and that to me is so much more important. 

I’ve started exercising and eating healthier over the last week

And so far I feel great! 

I do at least 30 minutes of intense cardio + exercises and stretching, and I have worked out a few times last week plus wednesday, thursday, and today. I feel great! I am sleeping better, I already notice a huge change in my moods, I don’t crave as much junkfood as I did before, and I already feel my body getting tighter. I don’t know if it’s just my mind thinking I am seeing changes already, but I tfeel great about myself and my self-confidence has greatly increased. Maybe it’s just knowing that I am doing something that is good for my body for once. Who knows! 

I also started Jillian Michaels’ “30 day shred” today, and even though I have already done day one…I really want to do it again. I think I will! 

The 25ish minutes of her workout flew by, and I think I would like to do it again just to have that extra amount of exercise in my day. 

I feel so gooooooood! haha.